Fashion Friday and An Ego Check

Before I dive into Fashion Friday today, I want to give myself an ego check. For the last several days, my ego has been being downright rude to me. I’m having a LOT of ego-based fears and really need to keep attempting to silence my ego so that I can hear the quiet but true messages from my ~ing. I may have already lost some eye-rolling readers after those last few sentences, but I really need to vent! And the teachings of Gabby Bernstein really have been helping me.

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So what is my authentic truth? That is, after all, what I want to live by. I’ve noticed on this journey to self love that whenever I am exhibiting behaviors that I know are ego-based, the behaviors do not relieve my anxiety in the end. I’ve realized anxiety I feel related to going AGAINST my ego and doing what I truly want to do (eating dessert, skipping a workout in favor of a happy hour, etc) is what I’d equate to dull, aching pain. That sounds really awful but it’s kind of in the background, and I can deal with it, because what I’m doing is making me happy and I can live in the moment and pat myself on the back at the end of the day because I know I was being true to ME. And I know that the pain will weaken over time and disappear when I reach the point at which I am truly happy with myself.

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Whenever I do something like skip a snack or add extra cardio to my gym routine, I literally feel a tightness in my chest. My anxiety goes beyond mental and manifests itself physically. I can almost feel myself giving my ego the power, and it scares the shit out of me. Which is a good thing, because that leads to me stopping the ego-based behaviors and trying to direct myself back to my truth.

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Which is what I’m trying to do right now! The weekend starts today and I have some great plans. I DESERVE to enjoy them. What I eat, what I do at the gym, whatever…should not determine whether or not I can enjoy myself this weekend or ANY other day. So I’m making a declaration right now – I will be kind to myself.

I will check my ego at the door right now. And move on to Fashion Friday. Because that’s what I do. That’s very ME!

Blouse: Ideeli

Pants: Urban Outfitters

Shoes: PacSun

Sooo proud that the inside of my coat matched my blouse.

Coat: Forever 21

Scarf: Express

Sweater, Jeggings: American Eagle

Rose Ring: Forever 21

Boots: Ideeli

Coat: Forever 21

Top: Ann Taylor

Necklace: J. Crew

Watch: NYC flea market

Pants: Urban Outfitters

Flats: Ideeli

I’m off to get through this work day so I can get a fun weekend going! I have the Best of Hartford voting party tonight at Esca with my mom and good friend Kat. Should be a BLAST and the menu is already giving me classic what-will-I-get-so-many-choices anxiety. This is a good thing.

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How do you give yourself an ego check?

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Meet Caitlin

I’m a 28 year old full-time working girl living in Boston (previously lived in Connecticut). I’m passionate about food/drink, restaurants, self-love, fitness, and the ever-present search for balance. I write about that journey on this blog – I hope you enjoy!

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